A to Z Blogging Challenge: I is for Icehouse

 

A to Z Blogging Challenge:

I is for Icehouse

by

Adam Everhard

My cousin got me and my sister into Icehouse. They had a couple of hits here in the U.S. before their albums started ending up in the dollar bins. They're quite popular in Australia, their homeland, and deservedly so.
I was actually never as keen on their big hits such as "Crazy" and "Electric Blue" as I was on their deeper cuts. I love the above song, for instance.
On a personal note, it was one of those songs I cried in my beer to when I finally grew a pair and broke up with my emotionally abusive boyfriend of 8 years in 2005. Changed the lyric to "hey little boy" when I blubbered along. My family and friends were proud of me for kicking him to the curb, and I was proud of myself. I was okay during the day, but when the night fell, there I was sobbing my heart out to sad tunes.



This is one of my songs with my new guy, who my sister and brother in law introduced me to at a Halloween party in 2010. Kay, stop tearing up, you silly old queen. I've always been a bit of a wet blanket. I love my man. Never thought I'd be with anyone else, but now I've got someone to spend the rest of my life with.

Boys and girls, if you're Icehouse fans, I've got a treat for you!

On a side note, I saw my ex last summer when I was out with a couple of friends. He didn't see me and I didn't make any effort to alert him to my presence. He was still the same. Wavy highlighted hair, tight pants, obsessively toned body, real pretty.
Did I feel any nostalgia? No, I felt relief that he was out of my life. Being a party boy and picking up dick wherever you can find it is not a good look when you're in your mid forties. The pretty is all he has. I'm pretty sure he also still has a love for nose candy. It's actually kind of sad.

Icehouse is one of those bands that writes songs for life's soundtrack. Yeah, that sounds cheesy. But that's how I feel. They're a great, underrated band.

~Adam~

 



How I Was Almost Special

First, read this article. Then read about how I was "almost special." He didn't get away--I threw him back. He wasn't worth of the love I had to give.

I almost let him back into my life. He broke my heart 25 years ago. Came back saying he was clean now, a changed man, ready to make a fresh start. If by clean he meant only doing coke once a day instead of four times, I guess he was. He was estranged from his two oldest sons, had a tenacious relationship with his twenty year old son, and my heart broke for his ten year old. His second ex wife (a woman whom I like, and who had taken him back once herself) wouldn't let him see the boy alone, and I don't blame her. She would only let him visit with his father if one of his older brothers was with him. His first wife (whom I also know and like) wanted as little to do with him as possible. 

He is charming as hell, probably a sociopath, and so adept at playing the hurt little boy. But when I found out he was still doing coke, I told him I couldn't be more than a friend. He ended up with a fellow druggie, a woman 20 years his junior. (He's 56 years old, still acting like an irresponsible teenager.) He doesn't look or act like a bad boy, he has the face of an angel and this "aw shucks" Southern boy manner that could charm the socks off the hardest case (like me.) 

Yeah, my heart broke. I'm not going to lie and say it didn't. This all went down a couple months ago and I've just now been able to start going to sleep without crying or wishing he was there beside me. But I realize now that I don't miss him. I sure didn't need the drama in my life that he would have brought. I miss who he appeared to be. Being with him would have strained my relationship with my own adult son, a young man with a gift for understatement, who said to me, "Mom, let's put it this way. Someone--we both know who I mean--tends to make really, really bad decisions."  So for the sake of my son and my animals, if not for myself, I couldn't let this man be close to me. Even though he wouldn't physically hurt them--he's never been prone to physical violence--the kinds of people he'd be bringing around might. I couldn't risk that.

I've decided that I'm going to spend my life solo--just me and my family and my animals. The few minutes of fake affection aren't worth months and years of pain. I've got my own problems, and the men I tend to attract and be attracted to are just no good. But this guy was the worst of them. He did it to me 25 years ago and he almost did it to me again. I'm glad I got out before fully becoming one of the "special" ones.

Peace,

Tempest

Some Call HIm the King of Sluts

Reminds me of an unfortunate choice that I made some 15 years ago. This guy was utter trash, he'd f**k anything that would give him the time of day. I don't know why I was so stupid as to think I'd be the one to "change him." Something to do with being dysfunctional as hell and having a low self esteem, I suppose.

Your Cheatin' Heart

So, here's my rant, as promised.

Kristin Stewart was caught cheating on Rob Pattinson with Rupert Sanders, who is the director of Snow White and the Huntsman. He's married.

Kristin says: "I'm deeply sorry for the hurt and embarrassment I've caused...it jeopardized the most important thing in my life, the person I love and respect the most, Rob. I love him, I love him, I'm so sorry."

Sanders says he is "utterly distraught about the pain" he caused his "beautiful wife and heavenly children," and said he is "praying" that they can get through it together."

Tempest says: If they did it before, they'll do it again. Maybe not with each other, but with someone else. Once a cheater, always a cheater. Their respective partners would do well to tell them to take a hike.

Some have said that since Sanders and Stewart were only caught kissing that isn't really cheating. Bullshit. If I'm in an exclusive relationship with a man and he's sticking his tongue down another woman's throat, that's cheating. And eventually it will progress to other things.

What Kristin is saying is that she's sorry she got caught. What Sanders is praying is that his wife divorce him and stick it to him financially.

If these two end up together, they deserve each other. Once a cheater, always a cheater. It would just be a race to see which of them was the first to cheat again.

Betrayed

This picture comes from this website, which has some very important information on violence in teen relationships. 

I chose it because to a degree it expresses what I feel inside.

Because of the fact that nobody pays attention to what I say at this point, I feel comfortable expressing something that has been eating at me for years.

There are people in this world who don't feel like they've won unless they've destroyed someone else in the process.

They did come very close to destroying me. But I'm still here. Not unscathed by any means, but I am still here.

I no longer feel like I have something special to share with the world. I'm creating again, but I'm keeping it close in. I will not be sharing any of it.

As for the subject of my ill advised book.

Yes, I did come to love him. And fancy that, certain people who I trusted with that truth were hell bent on fucking that up for me too.

He and I are no longer in contact with one another. He hates me now, and I feel nothing but numb sorrow when I think of him.

You think I could ever forgive the people who brought this about?

They will never be forgiven.

What's next to the moon? The idea that I will ever find love.

Correction--that's somewhere in another fucking galaxy.

So now you fucking know.

Cheating: A Choice

Or, to be fair, onto a dick.

Nope

 

Ain't worked yet. I'm just not putting myself out there to make any more mistakes. I'd rather be alone and relatively content than miserable with the wrong guy.

How to Deal With a Douchebag Boyfriend

Stolen Sunday Steals: The Imaginary Meme, Part 5

I'm stealing the meme, and this beautiful picture, from a blog called. Sunday Stealing. Now, oh excitement unbridled, you can get to know more about me!

 

Sunday Stealing: The Imaginary Meme, Part Five

81. What’s your favorite action movie?

I think of it more as a horror/sci-fi movie, but Aliens has plenty of action and it's one of my favorite movies. Right now I've been one of the Writing Sisters helping the madcap Cie Cheesemeister get back in the game. She's been creating this absolutely over-the-top insane, funny fanfic that only the craziest folks could get into. It's a blend of the characters from her universe, the Aliens characters, and a whole bunch of other funny shit. Must be seen to be believed!

I'm a little reluctant to share the link with the Blogiverse at large, because the Cheesemeister is finally coming out of her shell after hiding away for a long time. (The story is on a hidden blog.) She was hurt very badly and is still vulnerable. Therefore, if you are a cool person who can live and let live and if you don't like it will simply leave it alone, but if you do like it will sing its praises to her, I'll give you the URL. 

If, on the other hand, I really can't get a "vibe" from you or I get a bad one because you seem to be a potential troll, no dice.

I've learned that sometimes I have to be a bitch to keep things rolling smooth. I don't let vermin into my house or my family and friends' houses.

82. Have (or are) you ever been involved someone much older than you?

Fifteen years older. I was 30, he was 45. It didn't end well, but we were able to be friends later.

83. Do you believe in lust at first sight?

Yes, but acting on it tends to be a bad idea.

84. Favorite type of venomous snake?

I really dig all snakes. I just don't think it's a good idea to touch the venomous ones. Kind of like it's a good idea not to act on lust at first sight.

85. Do you drink alcohol?  

Not at all any more, but when I was younger I drank a lifetime supply.

86. If you wanted to talk to someone who'd lift your spirits, who'd you call?

My son, I imagine. If I call my mother, it's to try and lift her spirits. She tends to be very critical, and that ends up leaving me depressed.

87. What do you wear to feel sexy?

I haven't been sexually active for the better part of 15 years. I am not sexy. I don't care about feeling sexy.

88. Do you like to learn?

If it's stuff I really want to learn about. I believe in lifetime learning.

89. Have you ever been hit on by someone who really overestimated their attractiveness?

Yes. And once I was hit on by someone who really overestimated his penis size. He told me he was most manfully endowed, and proceeded to show me even though I said I really didn't want to see it. It was not impressive.

90. Where did you last go on vacation?

Arizona, to visit my brother. This was in 2003.

91. Dallas (as in J.R. & Bobby) returns this week. What film or TV series would you loved to be resurrected?

None of them. The remakes are never as good.

92. Explain your karma beliefs.

Basically, what goes around will eventually come around. Although karma is actually more complex than this. There's karma that can be brought on you by your actions, karma that can be brought on you by your thoughts, and sometimes shit happens because you get caught in someone else's karma. There's personal karma, there's the karma of the human race, and the karma of the planet itself. But in brief, what goes around comes around. So don't fuck with other people. Being a dick is never cool.

93. When do you think that you have a hard life?

Whenever I look in the mirror and see this haggard, tired face. Whenever I look into my heart and feel the pain of loss and disappointment. Whenever I look at my bank account and feel that I will never have enough money to have a decent life.

94. Favorite comic strip?

Hell, I don't know. But I do like reading the Comics Curmudgeon website.

95. Have you ever broken a heart?

Inadvertently. I was just getting out of a bad relationship when a friend of mine decided it was time to make his move. It was not time to make his move. He was a shy, awkward fellow with a hefty build. Of course he thought that I was turning him down because of his size. That had nothing to do with it. I did not want to get involved again that soon, and my last relationship had been really, really bad.

Sadly, this put a strain on the friendship, and we ended up losing touch.

96. Should pot be legalized?

Yes. I do not partake of it myself, but it is no worse than alcohol. Utilize the same laws that are used with alcohol.

Medical marijuana should be treated more stringently than recreational marijuana. It needs to have a certain level of purity to be truly therapeutic. 

97. Have you ever gone skinny dipping with someone that you shouldn't have?

Nope. 

98. What do you do when you're down?

Pretty much the same things as I do when I'm up, except I sleep a lot more. Being bipolar, I actually do have up and down cycles. I rapid cycle, so I experience every cycle for about a week to ten days out of every month. I'm just coming off a high cycle and seem to be going into a low cycle. Hopefully it won't be a very bad one.

99. Last time you were really angry?

Last July. I still hope that the two fucking backstabbing horse's asses that made me so angry burn in hell. I'll provide the starter fluid for the barbecue.

100. What is your favorite flavor in general?

 Chocolate

 

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Sometimes it's an addiction rather than love.

Then there's good in goodbye.

This is only okay if it's happening between a pair of demons.

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