Found Out the Hard Way

Betrayed

This picture comes from this website, which has some very important information on violence in teen relationships. 

I chose it because to a degree it expresses what I feel inside.

Because of the fact that nobody pays attention to what I say at this point, I feel comfortable expressing something that has been eating at me for years.

There are people in this world who don't feel like they've won unless they've destroyed someone else in the process.

They did come very close to destroying me. But I'm still here. Not unscathed by any means, but I am still here.

I no longer feel like I have something special to share with the world. I'm creating again, but I'm keeping it close in. I will not be sharing any of it.

As for the subject of my ill advised book.

Yes, I did come to love him. And fancy that, certain people who I trusted with that truth were hell bent on fucking that up for me too.

He and I are no longer in contact with one another. He hates me now, and I feel nothing but numb sorrow when I think of him.

You think I could ever forgive the people who brought this about?

They will never be forgiven.

What's next to the moon? The idea that I will ever find love.

Correction--that's somewhere in another fucking galaxy.

So now you fucking know.

Don't Go To Bed Angry

Glad You Aren't Here

There are a few I feel this way about.

Hot Shit, Are We?

When I was growing up, there was also "S/he thinks s/he's hot shit in a champagne glass, but s/he's really just a cold turd in a Dixie Riddle cup."

You know the type--yep!

Crawling Out of the Woodwork

After some bad experiences on Facebook and some major drama with so called "friends," I had decided that I really didn't want to engage in social networking except for occasionally updating my Facebook page and occasionally contributing to the Animal Anarchy page.. So I didn't do anything for a long time. But now I've flushed all the fake friends out of my life, and I'm ready to get real. Besides, my Writing Sisters have been hassling me to get on Posterous and become part of the KHEL 666 team. (KHEL 666 can be found on Blogger or Facebook.) So, here I am!

Oh yeah, one of these days I actually will get that book published too. The target is now mid-July.

Surround Yourself with the Best

Trust me on this. If you have fuckers in your life who are always challenging your every word and belittling your every thought and action, you need to get them out of your life sooner rather than later. The longer you let them hang on, the more of your soul they will suck away, and then it will take a long time to get your belief in yourself back.

Ain't this the Truth?

Fear the Frenemy

Precious and Rare

Don't Need Any Lying Ass Bullshit Fake Love or Friendship

This is only true when they are backstabbing frenemy types or cheating slime. Some people you will always need, and some of them go away too soon to the Great Beyond.

Know it Alls

Check out Kelly Clarkson – Mr. Know It All http://www.last.fm/music/Kelly+Clarkson/_/Mr.+Know+It+All via @lastfm one of the more powerful voices of modern pop.

At this point, things have quieted down, but a couple of years back, there were some rumors going around about me, started by ignorant people, like always.

I'm pretty open in some ways, but in others I'm very secretive. Never assume anything, about me or anyone else.

Frenemies

Check out Hate Your Friends – Bringing Down The Center House (Ft. Queen Latifah) http://www.last.fm/music/Hate+Your+Friends/_/Bringing+Down+The+Center+House+(Ft.+Queen+Latifah) via @lastfm

I sure don't hate my real friends, even though I may get irritated with them sometimes. Frenemies, however, I can do without!